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Robert Pattinson make my fiction figure real

Before I became the freaking crazy fan of Twilight Saga, I was a Harlequin-romance novel lovers. I read hundreds of Harlequin novels from 2000 to mid 2008. I started to lost my passion for Harlequin when I finally introduced myself to Twilight world. Not only becoming crazy fan of Twilight, I also had to face my new world and my new habit. Because Twilight not only made me did the silly things but Twilight also made me write.

So in the needs of romantic quotes for my imaginary writings, I started to re-read one of my fave Harlequin novel, “It came upon a midnight clear” from the Tall, Dark & Dangerous series wrote by one of my favorite Harlequin author, Suzanne Brockmann.

I just ran few pages when I got strike by an amusing fact. The male character is Lt. William “Crash” Hawken. In the novel he was described as extraordinary handsome. Calm & mysterious. His bone structure was as described by epic poets, symmetrical. Completed with aristocrat descent nose and masculine jawline. He has a gothic romance lips, pretentious, touchy and taut. His eyes was gray-blueish, the strength of his eyes could pierce your mind and stop your heart beats.

When I read all those descriptions, I could only figure one name. Robert Pattinson. To make sure it was not only because I am freaking crazy overdose of him, I tried to check his looks base on those descriptions.

a symmetrical bone structure.

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Masculine jawline. UK TV in 2006 described his jawline as so finely chiseled, it could split granite.

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the aristocrat descent nose.

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a Gothic romance lips, pretentious, touchy and taut.

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Gray-blueish eyes. It could pierce your mind and stop your heart beats.

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Before this, I used to think that no man could look that perfect. Robert Pattinson proved that he could. He is extraordinary handsome, calm & mysterious.

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Now, when I read “It came upon a midnight clear”, I could not take his captivating face off my head. Robert Pattinson made my fiction figure real.

Kristen, my personal brand of heroine

I almost choke with satisfaction. I sat on the statue of Alice in the Wonderland. This is Kristen’s fave place. I felt the thrill in my heart. I could feel her scent in every single air I breathe. I could feel the scent of my love and my soul

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My satisfaction gave me more happiness to have another great pleasure. Ruby Jerins, my sister in Remember me. I like her. She’s cute and funny. But I guess this whole cheerful feeling was not only came from her. I have another reasons. My last week end.

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I knew since I left LA, Kristen was uneasy. It was getting worse. Especially when the tabloids started to write anything about my growing relationship with Emilie. I have told Kristen before, everything were pure acting. When the camera stop rolling, I have no intimacy with Emilie. I bet she could understand because she’s an actor too. Pictures could show that Emilie was nice and friendly every time we had breaks. But of course anyone could be friendly. Ruby, Pierce, anyone. Nothing special. Kristen already put the permanent and unbreakable hold to my heart

But I fully understand Kristen’s feelings. I love my valentine so much. I’ve made my commitment. I will meet her anytime I have my free time. I wish she can visit me in NY, but her schedule were tighter than mine. I don’t mind to fly to LA every week end. Because I knew, by doing that, Kristen will see my seriousness.

So when we met last week end. I gave my best to make her see. I told her again, “You are the only one who has ever touched my heart. It will always be yours“. –quote from Eclipse

When I hugged her, I want her to be comfort in my arms. When she pressed the side of her face tenderly against my chest, I felt her to every core of my nerves, I wanted her to feel the same. When I planted my kiss to her lips, I sent my message. I am hers. No one could claim other than that. I really had a great time. I knew it was not easy to comfort Kristen’s feeling. But for this moment, I strongly believed, Kristen is my sunshine and my angel. I will have my 4 days off this week end. I will meet her again. I will do anything I could do to make her happy. Because just like Edward, Kristen already became my personal brand of heroine. I am addicted to her. But this addict is not a guilty pleasure. This addict is a great pleasure. No guilty feeling to have it
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Whatever the true story behind the wide-spread pictures & newest gossip, my writing is just my point of view, my own analysis.

to read the same imaginary line from Kristen’s PoV just read unconditionally & irrevocably in love with Robert

Kristen, my sunshine my angel

I miss her. I still tired, but need to meet the producer. Time to work. Walking, I memorize many things in mind.

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My daydreaming moment at Cannes. I didn’t listen carefully what the presenter asked me. I was in the middle of enjoying my own fantasy.

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My fantasy of Kristen in her wedding gown. Never seen her that beautiful. I knew she’s beautiful, that’s one reason of many reasons that made me fell in love with her. But in wedding gown. Beautiful was not enough to describe it. I imagined of putting ring on her fingers and asked her, “Kristen Jaymes Stewart, will you marry me?” I was longing for that day.

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Then I recalled my intimate moment with her at Sam’s concert. One of the best moment in my life. Sharing your music interest with your love interest. It was thrilling.

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I also memorized my moments in Italy. It was speechless moment when she touched my skin through my torn shirt. My athletic angel torn my shirt. But I didn’t mind. She could rip my shirt, torn it into pieces. I just loved to feel her touch on my bare skin.

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My closest encounter and intimate moment with Kristen. Hugging her in front of the crews. Silent announcement of my love for her.

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the moment of teasing her. I love her smile. My sunshine.

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the moment of listening to her stories. I just love to looked at her. My precious love.

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Then, I recalled her picture in Santa Monica. My heart fluttered. She’s the most beautiful creature in my universe.

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I am relieved. The separation is not painful anymore. I have my faith. As last as long as I live Kristen is my sunshine, my angel.

Whatever the true story behind the wide-spread pictures & newest gossip, my writing is just my point of view, my own analysis. I’ll be tremendously happy if they could be a real couple, but if not at least I still have something to comfort my feelings.