Sometimes, being mature is like having two sides of a coin. On one side, you can have more wisdom that make you able to see things better than when you’re young but on the other side, it makes you let go simple things, like fandom, without a second thought.

I remember the first day I started my fandom 3 years ago. It was the hype of Twilight movie that catapulted Robert Pattinson into stardom in one night. By that time, I realized the other side of myself. Obsession made me able to do things out of my habits. There were days, when I didn’t get enough sleep because I was doing too much research on him. But thanks to my mature mind, though I was obsessed, my logic still knew very well the reason, that I ONLY follow a star with multi-talents and distinctive personality. A star who can produce admirable projects. When the amusement fades, my entire obsession washed away. It was a month after my 2009 birthday, when suddenly I lost my RPatzz Obsessive Disorder, for only one reason, he received too many popular awards. Though harvesting complaints, I left everything behind. I couldn’t find anything else to bring my obsession back, neither his talent nor his personality. It just gone with the wind.

Fandom is not like a faith. It can come and go at anytime. I realized that I am a little bit allergic to popular awards. In my opinion, popular award is necessary for someone who started their career, because it will show how much support and acknowledgement one can get. Popularity is the life and dead of a celebrity. They need to stay on top to be able to continue with their career. But, too much popular awards can blur the real talents. One will never know which really made them on top of the popularity, their strong fan base support or their real talent.

Since October last year, I found my new interest, one multi-talented Chinese male singer, Han Geng. Like my other experience, I started my new fandom with a very excited feeling to dig deeper about him. First obstacle? Language of course 😀 but it didn’t stop me from searching, because there were already sites that provide information about Han Geng in English to accommodate my usual habit, spent nights and days to catch up. I experienced many things, done projects I never imagined before and joined the beautiful circle of friendship with another Gengfans.

Han Geng, since the first day he decided to have his solo career, skyrocketed to unbelievable level of popularity. His hard works for many years started to acknowledged and appreciated. Han Geng wiped many music events like a cyclone with his outstanding performance and received more awards in a lightning speed. I lost count on how many popular awards he received within 2010 to early 2011. On one hand, I was so proud of him, but on the other hand, suddenly I was hit by one reality. It was like deja vu. I am entering another too popular period of a star, even less than 6 months. Will I let this fandom goes just like before? The one question that haunted my mind for many days, how long Han Geng can stay famous on this industry? Is it only because he has a very strong fan base that would give whole heart support to make him win any polls? Or will he stay famous without any support because his real talent can make him strong?

I have to admit, there were days, when I really lost my passion. I saw his pictures blankly and watched his videos with no taste. But my heart had experienced something different from my other fandom. My Geng fandom is no longer obsession. My Geng fandom has changed from obsessive disorder to an admiration and respect. I recalled my memories to Spring Gala Festival Interview on February this year. He was totally handsome during the interview, but I had one moment that plastered into my mind, a short dialogue between 04:38 – 04:45

Han Geng: “Yes, I should work harder and I hope that I can attend the Spring Festival Gala again next year”.
Male interviewer: “You need to use more power from the Gengfans” < -- I felt like slapping his face actually X-( Han Geng: "No, I still need to work hard and rely more on myself"

Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage – Lao Tzu –

Han Geng knows his strength

Only time can prove whether or not I’m a real quality singer. If let’s say there is someone powerful that’s backing me up, then that someone will naturally be my ‘Gengfans’ Without them giving me strength, I would not be able to continue down this path

But Han Geng also loves his fans deeply and knows that only hard work can make him stand strong and able to give out the best of him to gain more respects

I hope that everyone would respect each other in work.
My concert, my album, my hard work is all for those who have been supporting me.
Even if that there is only just 1 audience left at the stand… I will still give my all on the stage. I am very sincere towards every one, I respect every show I attended.
So, I hope that I will receive the same degree of respect.

It’s not necessary for me to try to find reason to bring back my passion, because the reasons are all there. How can I withdraw myself from someone who had rocked my little world with his heart-warming smile and amazing dancing talent? How can I withdraw myself from someone who’s been working very hard in the past and proved that he deserved all the attention? How can I withdraw myself from someone with his humbleness and sincerity, put his fans as equal as his family? I know that I can not withdraw myself from someone who says what he does and does what he says. Han Geng is exceptional. He’s more than just a pretty boy with angelic face with devilish figure.

From his last two performances during [V] Channel Music Awards and China Mobile Beijing Concert he proved his words of hard works and showed his improvement. All the awards are to appreciate his hard works and real talent. He has conquered his homeland, but he still needs to work harder to gain international acknowledgment and respect.

When Han Geng’s popularity goes very high, I know where my heart should go. It should go to its place, Han Geng’s Wings of Love, sealed as one of the simple but strong feather, to support him reaching his ultimate goal, going international.

I write so I can share what I see through my heart, my personal point of view and my own analysis.

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Things never happen the same way twice
– C. S. Lewis –

Life is like a book. Everyday has a new page with adventures to tell, things to learn and tales to remember. How do we value our live? By piling our wealth? So we can live happily ever after while we’re old and no longer productive? Or by yielding our passions to any temptations, while we’re young and posses enough money to buy anything? Or we can value our life by learning from others about wisdom of life.

If I look back my entire life, I had experienced many moments and among them, there were moments I value higher than the others. Moments when I met valuable people through various occasions, that brought unforgettable memories and sometimes learned about wisdom of life that change my perspective and way of thinking.

In the last 6 months, I’ve been following one Chinese male singer, Han Geng who’s been skyrocketed to the highest level of popularity since he returned from South Korea in 2009, back to his own country, China to start his solo career. Until now, he is still on top of his popularity and I believe will continue till unpredictible period.

At the beginning, it was his soft soothing voice, his crispy laughter, his adorable cute handsome face and his undeniable breath-taking dancing talent that caught my attention. But is he the real womanizer who without the diva attributes can still melt the hearts of many women? Though he usually looks like the aristocrat handsome Chinese guy, but there were also times when Han Geng looks just like those ordinary Chinese guy from your neighborhood. (Read more of my writings before you get furious on my comment :p)

Those who had an opportunity to see him in person, can give a firm confirmation. One of my Thai Geng friend was my eyes on Han Geng during his visit to Thailand on February. She followed Han Geng since the day he arrived at the airport. From her “report” I believe Han Geng can melts many women’s heart with his physical appearance.

At the airport he wore jacket, but when we arrived at the mall he removed his jacket and wore only undershirt and jeans *drool*
Oh I can’t describe about his figure ~ blush~ he want to kill his fans isn’t he =__= by showing his figure hahaha his face is so adorable I expect he’s so handsome but I can tell you He si SO SO adorable.. Han Geng is not handsome.. but he has something that made us drooling.. but if looking to his body……. I only describe it by one word “Gorgeous”

(That picture freezed my brain and caused new disorder, GOMAD ==> Geng Obsessive Muscled Arm Disorder.)

Again, my Thai Geng friend confirmed how she felt when finally she’s able to see Han Geng face to face during the book signing.

“I was happy, saw him so close made me lost my word, =____=
I want to tell him that “Thailand fans always support you” I was going to tell him but he….he stop his hand and look up to see my face. It made me lost Haha Oh…. with his gentle smile“

Reading her comments brought happy big grin to my face, but I know that speaking about Han Geng is more than just physical appearance. Speaking about Han Geng is more to his unique and distinctive characteristics. No need to re-tell how strong heart and hard worker Han Geng is. His life story became a legend for many years. His hardships and how he struggled to reached his dream has become a strong encouragement for many young people, not only in China but also throughout the Asia continent.

No need to re-tell how filial Han Geng as the only child in the family. The statement of “I would like my family to have a better live” resulting more respect and admiration. Spent his first 100K to buy a dumpling store followed by opening a beauty saloon for his mother proved his strong commitment and has become a wish for many mother fans, including me, to have a filial son like him. Above all else, without he realized, he also made himself the top candidate of future dream husband ^_^

Though lately I found its getting harder to follow his updates, because my lack of Chinese language, but I am firm about one thing, admiration and respect that grow in my heart is expanding from his physical appearance to his distinctive characters.

The more you show concern about the welfare and rights of others, the more you are a genuine friend. The more you remain open and sincere, then ultimately more benefits will come to you.
– H.H the XIVth Dalai Lama –

I, together with my Gengster Manager, sltan from geng-bao.net, composed an e-book for his 27th Birthday. The gift has given to him during his visit to Thailand. But my heart was only ballooning for few hours before I read his weibo update:

“Thank you Thailand Fans for all the birthday presents, but there are too many that I am unable to bring back to China, so I will entrust the Thailand staff to use them for charity! Also to spread everyone’s love!”

On one hand I only had one perfect word to summarize my feeling, afraid. He might never see my gift, but on the other hand I also realized that I can’t do anything. I just let the nature take it course until I read another weibo update from Xiu Lan, about what he’s done to all the gifts:

#Han Geng# 2011.02.26 Last night @Han Geng did not sleep!
He opened all the gifts given to him by the Thailand Fans. Except for food, he brought back all the other gifts to China! The Thailand Staff will donate the food to charity.
Because he did not have enough luggages, he had to use those belonging to the Chinese Staff! Haha

What should I say? I remembered my reaction that day. I was sitting in front of my laptop screen, looking at the pictures of piled boxes and what Han Geng did to them. I was speechless for minutes before finally I shed my tears. The respectful and admirable pop idol, with a deep concern and appreciation to his fans. He won my heart and increased my respect to the higher level.

There were days, when I was thinking about my Geng fandom. How long it will last? What can make me stay loyal to him? But there was also day when I saw a picture of the heart-winning laughter that reach his eyes, while he’s doing charity in a remote area, far from his convenient shell, Bei Jing. The day that made me confident to say, I might stop being his fans someday, but I will never stop admire and respect him as a man with an ocean-wide heart.

“He overcame all obstacles, Hangeng cleared the morning and afternoon of the 13th for this charity event. Beforehand, he reminded us a million of times to not reveal that he’s going He just wants to do something by himself. Not as an idol, but as an ordinary person, a volunteer that’s just like everyone else.”

Read complete story of Han Geng’s Charity Activities in Zanhuang, Hebei China

The reason behind his decision to joined his Gengfans in the charity event is his ocean-wide heart, that made him strong in giving more to others in needs.

Personally involved, will enable us to understand more their needs and desires!
Do not hesitate and wait any more, do whatever you can, take action, start from bit by bit!
Han Geng’s weibo update on 15 March 2001

There are Gengfans, who considered as lucky fans, because they had a chance to be on stage with him even hugged by the warm hearted Chinese star. There are also lucky Gengfans who can see him in person at the airports or during a fan meeting. A little tickling question in my heart, am I not one lucky fan? I never met Han Geng. As a Gengfan, it’s a normal thought if I wish to meet Han Geng. I might meet him someday, who knows ^_^ But, even though I never had the opportunity to meet him for the entire of my fandom period, I know that deep inside of my heart I am more than just a lucky fan, I am blessed, because through my Geng fandom period, I had the opportunity to learn about wisdom of life from Han Geng.

Worry about your character not your reputation. Because character is who you are and reputation is what people think about you. – Bumblebee –

Han Geng I admire from afar is a young man who says what he thinks and does what he says. A sincere star who prefers people to see how hard he tried rather than his appearance and value his life by doing more for others. Han Geng I admire from afar is a simple handsome young man with heart-warming smile, but has strength to influences many people around the globe by his humble wisdom of life.

Worth reading articles about Han Geng here and here

I write so I can share what I see through my heart, my personal point of view and my own analysis. This writing also posted on my personal live journal

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