When I first followed Han Geng, the site called “forhangeng” was my first source to find more information before I finally joined Geng-Bao.Net. After I joined the forum, and contribute actively, though not regularly as before, I still visit forhangeng, because I like the way the authors shared their perspectives about anything related to Han Geng 🙂

I remembered it was an ordinary day when I read the post about one Indonesian Gengfans, which interesting and tingled my thought a little bit,

“Here is one very devoted and determined Gengfan who traveled all the way from her hometown of Mataram, Indonesia to Hong Kong…Not only determined but also a very lone Gengfan in that part of the world.. Prior to the Fan-meeting in HK, she had been to Singapore and Thailand for those two fan-meetings.. From Singapore, she followed HG to Bangkok, Thailand.”

From the day I read the post, I couldn’t stop asking myself the same question. What is actually devoted and determined Gengfans?

I kept thinking about the other Gengfans who’s spent their days and nights to create many things or arranged many events to show their love and support for Han Geng. The Thai Gengfans, who’s praying in 9 temples for Han Geng and done the charities for nursery orphanage including serving lunch for them, long before Han Geng comes to Thailand. Those Gengfans who held Let Love Fly for 3 years in the row. Have we ever knew, that probably some of them donated from their savings? Sacrificed their other pleasures so they will have enough money to donate? I believe, those Gengfans were doing charities, not to make Han Geng proud or to get worldwide attention. I believe they did all the charities because they want to share their love to others, because Han Geng inspired them to do so.

I am also thinking about those who dedicated their times to manage an international fansite to make sure that the international Gengfans would have updates and reliable information about Han Geng. Those who spent their time to made the Geng-Bao.Net’s Birthday Project Video for Han Geng. Or those who joined the video. Some of them were camera shy, never let their faces shown to the outside world. But they eager not only showing their faces but also singing one line from Wings of Love. They dare themselves to do one action, that for those who don’t understand, considered as stupid and silly. Or those who never publicized, but has done lots of things for their surroundings, because Han Geng inspired them to do things out of their convenient shells?

When I wrote this blog, I tried to figure out what is actually the devoted & determined Gengfans?

Was doing charities without publication and silently praying for Han Geng, could be counted as part of being devoted & determined Gengfans?

Is doing translations, subbings, sharing more information in English or other languages for International fans can not be counted as being devoted & determined Gengfans?

Was writing one song from the heart to support Han Geng can’t be counted as devoted & determined Gengfans?

Was forming a human barrier at the airport to make sure that Han Geng is save can’t be counted as devoted & determined Gengfans?

Was saving pocket money to can buy his original album, his concept book or ticket to his concert can’t be counted either?

Was holding oneself from bothering Han Geng during his holiday can’t be counted as devoted & determined Gengfans?

Do I need to travel from my remote area across all the continents to meet him first, before I can be called an devoted & determined Gengfans?

Do I need to have pictures showing me together with Han Geng, before I can be called devoted & determined Gengfans?

If I don’t have enough money to do traveling or I chose to use my money to do more important things because of my responsibilities, then I can’t be called a devoted & determined Gengfans?

Do I need the whole world to know my love and support for Han Geng first, before I can be called a devoted & determined Gengfans?

Can’t I just silently love and support him from my remote place, without any publications, without traveling around the world to meet him, without no one knows that I am exist and still can be called devoted & determined Gengfan?

At the end of my writing, I got my personal answer. I know I can, because I am the part of Han Geng’s Wings of Love. I know I can, because the purpose of the Wings of Love is to make Han Geng stronger, so he can fly higher to reach his ultimate goal.

As the one devoted & determined Gengfan, I want to be one feather on Han Geng’s Wings of Love. Unseen, but along with the other feathers, I can create wider and stronger Wings of Love for Han Geng. All feathers on Han Geng’s Wings of Love are precious; none is more precious than the others. None of the feathers should get more attention than the others.

As the true & devoted Gengfan, I don’t need to be the inspirational glorious feather on Han Geng’s Wings of Love, just the simple but strong one. Because all I want is to support him with my whole heart as long as I can.

The reason I wrote this blog was because I am standing on the other side of the moon. I viewed and experienced different face of the moon. Different from the others who view the moon from opposite side.

I wrote this blog, so I can share what I see through my heart, my personal point of view and my own analysis.

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I had lived long enough, I guess 😀 Experienced many fandoms since my teens. Through the whole fandom period, I thought the craziest period was 3 years ago, when I started to follow Robert Pattinson and realized that I have a passion to write. But I was wrong. Though I wrote many blogs and imaginary writings about him, but I realize, it was not the craziest period in my fandom life.

I stopped following Robert Pattinson after a year, because my fangirl side distracted by another star, Ben Barnes. The British heartthrob who won my heart through his role as Prince Caspian. But again, following him was also not the craziest period. I still admire Ben Barnes till the day I write this blog, because I admire multi-talented star with heart-winning attitude and he’s one of those stars. Then, after almost another one year, I distracted once again. This time from someone unpredictible. Someone barely known in my small world. Someone without glorious appearance. Someone very humble and sincere but able to knocked my sense harder than the others. Someone with a name taken from the brightest Venus star, Han Geng. Of course he’s different. The other two stars are actors from England, while Han Geng is a pop singer from other part of the world, China. Of course he’s different. While the other two stars admired by their great looks and acting ability, Han Geng is praised by his dancing talent and crowned as the new Asia Dancing King. Though soon, Han Geng will prove his acting ability too ^_^

Until today, I still mesmerized by his dancing. Everytime I watch his dancing video, I can’t take my eyes off my laptop screen. He’s too dazzling.

and without any logical explaination, I, the Indonesian Geng Sister Fan, someone who don’t understand Chinese languange, never liked Chinese songs for almost the entire of my life, totally fell to his thin & soft tenor voice and to all of songs sang by him. ^_^
A Love Letter to a Stranger still caress my ear and soothe my heart, while his Fire still topping my playlist and becoming my mobile ring tone, which often shocked my surroundings because it so loud.. :p

Besides the multi-talents, I also admire his heart-winning infectious smile and heart-warming contagious laughter. His smiles and laughters reach his eyes and make him beautifully adorable.

But Han Geng is more than just admirable superstar. He is one exceptional rocking superstar. Han Geng rocked my little world and forced out more hidden side of myself that sometimes, shocking.

I remember the first day captivated by his charm. It was 8 September 2010, when I heard him singing “Wings of Love for the first time. Five months after that, on February 8, 2011, I valued each milestone in my Han Geng fandom period, which I never experienced before. The journey of my heart in following and supporting the exceptional good-looking Chinese guy, Han Geng.

Milestone #1
Han Geng made me joined the most friendly forum for non-speaking Chinese international fan like me, GENG-BAO.NET on September 22, 2010. I joined so I can fulfill my needs in finding more information about him. By joining the forum, indirectly, Han Geng gave me the opportunity to met many wonderful friends from around the world and sharing my crazy obsession with those who have the same love for Han Geng.

Han Geng also taught me the new meaning of “devoted fans”. Never in my life, I met a fanbase as strong and mature as the so called “Gengfans”. And because of the special manner, I am proudly calling myself, Gengfans.

(To all admins, moderators, translators, timers and encoders, who dedicated their valuable time for GENG-BAO.NET, I send my highest gratitude)

Milestone # 2
My Geng Obsessive Disorder, gave me shocking moment number one. It made me write 12 blogs in 5 months, while in the same period of months, I only produced 4 to 5 blogs about Robert Pattinson & Ben Barnes. Han Geng definitely the stronger booster to my writing desire.

(I also thanks my Thai ZenZhyn and my Vietnamese Ginny for giving their time to read my blogs)

Milestone # 3
Because he is Han Geng, I joined the Birthday Singing Project, last year organized by GENG-BAO.NET. Shocking moment number two, I let myself singing one line in GENG-BAO.NET’s Wings of Love with my face seen by everyone. Embarrassed? nope. I am proud of it. Because I did that all together with other Gengfans from around the world, in expressing our loves and supports for Han Geng.

(from the deepest of my heart, I send thanks to windchime, for her countless effort in compiling the whole pieces of video sent from around the globe, to one beautiful piece of singing project video. Also to onewhomust, TJ, Windchime, hsupergirl and abcdehs for their lovable thoughts in producing a very heart-touching wordings for the openings).

Milestone # 4
Through GENG-BAO.NET, I met someone who was the first reader of my blog about Han Geng and day by day becoming my partner in crime, my translator, and at the end my Gengster Editor, sltan. Because of our love for Han Geng, sltan encouraged me to compose a book, as a gift for Han Geng’s 27th Birthday. Shocking moment number three, in almost two months, both me & sltan finished the e-book and the final result already sent to Singapore, ready to handed over to Han Geng, during the Thai Fan Meeting on February, 26, 2011.
Wish me luck? thank you 😀

(On the delivery process, I send my thanks to my Kpop friend, Eka and my Geng-friend, paranoiakim)

Milestone # 5
Han Geng not only made me write and done something I never thought before, but without he realizes, he encourage me to learn the most difficult but beautiful languange, Mandarin. From the first day I met sltan, I made simple notes to every single Chinese character she taught me, and at the same day of Han Geng’s 27th birthday, on Wednesday, February 9, 2011, I will start my first private Mandarin lesson. ^_^

Milestone # 6
Because of my admiration to his charming manner and personality, his amazing dancing talent and his beautiful voice, I challenged myself to join the subbing team at GENG-BAO.NET. For this purpose, I, who’s not at the age of learning complicated things anymore, forced myself to learn new things, subbing and encoding programmes. For this, I send my grateful thanks to onewhomust, whose with her patience taught me the subbing and encoding steps, till finally, able to submitted my first subbing video on February 7, 2011. Proud of myself? of course. But on top of that, I am happy. Because I can contribute my little effort to support Han Geng.

I can not tell, how long my fandom towards Han Geng will last or how many milestones I will have in my journey to support him. Today, on his Birthday, I only want to share my story about how someone with exceptional personality rocked my little world and made me out of my comfortable shell to do things I never imagined before.

To Han Geng, HAPPY BIRTHDAY. Thank you for being so inspirational for me. May all the blessings be with you throughout the new additional year. Keep your hardworking and charming personality as well as your great relationship with Gengfans. I might not be able to give you the 20 years commitment, but as long as I can support you, I will do it with my wholeheart. Because you are one of the exceptionals. GOD bless your wonderful soul.

I write so I can share what I see through my heart, my personal point of view and my own analysis.

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“But Geng is famous now because SM took him and promoted his talents“.

“I still wish him to return to Super Junior“

The above comment, tickled my sense a little. Have you ever read this superior statement before?

China has advanced a lot recently, but at the time, how could he have earned the skills in China in order to become an international star? Hankyung himself knew that SME’s star system was superior, which is why he came to Korea

Yeap, it was from SME officials So last year? I know. But I love to bring it back now, because I do know that there are still people think that Han Geng is un-grateful and he will never reached his place today without him joined SM Entertainment.

Starting from December 2009, there is one name that becoming the most important topic throughout Asia Entertainment Industry. The name that can raise rating of TV shows. The name that can guarantee the high sales of magazines. The name that can put countless attendants to one event. The new Chinese most popular male singer, crowned as the new Asia Dancing King, the new Asian superstar, Han Geng. But this good looking Chinese guy was not someone who’s been catapulted into stardom in one single night. His journey from a naïve young boy to a very famous entertainer was heart-breaking and painful.

True, that Han Geng was not the only person who struggled to reach the ultimate dream, there are many other young people who tried their best to reach the level where Han Geng stands now. But Han Geng experienced things that not much young people would experienced. It was his ability to endure every single pain and overwhelmed the storm that made his life story one of the phenomenal and inspiration to others.

Behind all the glamorous Diva status, Han Geng was a simple man. After flying solo and in speed lighting, climbing his mountain of success, admitted that he has no ambitions.

“I have no ambitions. It’s not like I want to be a big shot, be a superstar. It just like what I’ve said, do my job well, let things work out naturally. No need to force myself to do certain things, must get to certain status. I don’t feel that way will necessary get me to that place, I will only tire myself out”.

To someone with no ambitions, Han Geng showed success beyond the limits.

Since the first day he arrived in Korea in 2003, till the day of his decision to terminate his contract with SM Entertainment at the end of 2009 before he announced his solo career, Han Geng had experienced many bitter sweet moments that sharpen his personality. No matter how hard the difficulties, he never gave up.

After the news of his contract termination emerged, many wants to know how he reacts on his case. Those who really support him or those who tried to find words to bring him down. But Han Geng never whined or complained or shed bad things. He took his period in Korea as one precious experience.

“To me, this is an excellent experience, and it also serves to remind me to increasingly appreciate my achievements now. If I hadn’t worked so hard in the past, I would probably be intoxicated by my status as a celebrity, and get stalled in my steps, or maybe even giving up when I meet even the smallest difficulties”

This kind of character easily pulls respects from others. Han Geng was not perfect, but about his principles, he’s almost impeccable.

People tend to forget that Han Geng didn’t win the audition with no efforts. To the ratio 3000 : 1, Han Geng must be someone with excellent talents and personality that met the requirements of SM Entertainment. Through the whole years of his period in Korea, Han Geng didn’t just sit on a chair, having a silver spoon on his mouth and let SME do everything to make him famous. He’s been working very hard with all of his heart and energy to make sure that the amount of money SME has spent for him would get re-paid.

I have said enough in my previous blog, but I like to emphasize once again, there is a terminology called “Mutual Respect”. An important potion to any kind of relationship. Without that, both parties would suffer and the relationship will end. Han Geng left the relationship because the mutual respect had became un-equal. Mutual respect for mutual benefit. Han Geng lost his mutual benefit position when the mutual respect became un-equal.

“I will respect you, why won’t you respect me. I need respect too. But when I gave your respect but you didn’t give me respect, then I won’t be happy with you”.

I am not speaking for Han Geng’s sake, I am not his spokeperson. I speak as one of his devoted fan. People must stop telling Han Geng about respect and gratefulness. He knew about those things better than any of us because he experienced more than any people can imagine. Stop linking him with SM Entertainment. He won the lawsuit. His contract has terminated. End of story. Period.

And to those who still believe in 13 or wishing Han Geng to return to Super Junior, please kindly put your dream down. Let’s speak professionally. Google these names, Robbie Williams became huge after he left Take That. Ricky Martin became crazily famous after he left Menudo. It’s a normal and common thing for talented stars to grow bigger by leaving their group. So nothing is wrong with Han Geng’s decision to terminate his unfair contract. Every precious talents must have liberty to grow bigger wings and flying high.

I wrote this blog because I want to share how my heart sees Han Geng. To my heart, Han Geng is someone with rare personality. A simple man with strong and charismatic personality. To him, I give my humble and full support.

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