I was totally aware that Kristen used to lean herself on me. During Twilight, every time a picture was taken, she was comfortably leaned herself. I believed it was because of our very good chemistry as co-stars.

During our encounter from premiere to premiere, I was still believed, every time she leaned herself, it was because of our friendship. But our feelings were growing stronger. I knew that every time she leaned herself, it was not only because of our very good chemistry nor our friendship. She told me once that my arms is her castle and my heart is her sky. It was an assurance. Every time she gravitated herself and leaned to my chest, it was because she loves me and she was trusting herself to my arms.

I still remembered clearly, during the filming breaks, the way she leaned and putting her finger on my shirt gave a thrill to my heart. It was not Edward Bella’s moment anymore. It was our moment. That was the moment I was certain, she’s the only one I want.

I also aware, that after so many trial during our separation and every single moment we have after that, she was getting comfortable and certain about our relationship. I was satisfied. She slowly showed without hesitant, that I was hers.

I was so much ready to announce our relationship. Her love note and knowing how I meant for her, strengthen my decision. I have made my commitment. I will do anything for us. Because when you love someone, you don’t give up. But I still have to wait. Kristen was not that confident about my decision. It was King Leon concert. We have decided to join the other casts to that concert. I told Kristen that I want her to sit next to me. I need her to be with me and she agreed.

It was out of my plan. I only wanted her to be near me. Close to my build. I just love to share my comments and stories during the performance with someone like her. Someone whom my heart attached to. But when she leaned herself, I could not hold myself. I took her hand, folded it into my hands. I felt her warmth. She smiled bashfully. My heart grew in satisfaction. I love my angel so much. Then she turned her face and whispered, “Rob, I am ready”. I was stunned. “ready for what love?”. She pulled herself closer and brought her lips to my ear “to follow your commitment”. I knew what she asked for. I was amazed by her decision. My angel, ready to announce our relationship, asking me to kiss her in public.

From the first time I sat next to her on that chair, I told myself to hold. I should not do anything to follow my desire. I must wait until she was ready. But I was also very sure. If she asked, I won’t be able to hold myself anymore. It was my longing, to kiss her passionately not only for the movie sake.

I was waiting for that moment, when we need no more hidden action. And she was ready now. Nothing could hold my decision. I bent my head and slowly kissed her lips. I could taste her lips on mine. It was soft & sweet. Not letting her hands, I deepen my kiss. I knew Kellan & Jackson were shocked. Usually we were able to hide our reaction in public. But it was different. We both were ready to stepped into the next level. It was the answer to my long waiting desire. I kissed my angel in public.

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I could not tell that they were really kissing. The picture was not clear. But for my imagination, they were kissing. Whatever the true story behind the wide-spread pictures & newest gossip, my writings is just my point of view, my own analysis.

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I fully remembered. It was so hard when we met last time. Before we both finished our commitment for our projects. Before we could meet again for Comic Con. Both of us were hardly able to say anything. We were desperate to be together and truly miserable when apart. That’s the ultimate reason I decided to stay with him at Chateau Marmont. I need to be with him anytime I could. Being with Rob was the only thing I had in mind. Having him near me was all I need. In many ways, I knew it’s getting hard to stay away from him. His absence was the most torturing moment for me. He already became my drug. Just like Bella to Edward, Robert has been my personal brand of heroine.

Usually I didn’t write. But for him, I found it was not difficult to write something. He gave me his love note. It was remarkably wonderful. I knew he loves me. But reading his note about his feeling was another thing. So, I wrote one for him last night. This morning, I passed him my note. I wanted him to read it for me. He chuckled, gave me a warm hug then started to read my note with his husky voice and British accent I love very much.

It was thrilling moment. He lost his voice. He just stared at me. His eyes were darken. He took me back to his arm, caressed my cheek and with his trembled voice he said, “Kristen, I will do anything for us if I meant this much for you. Anything”. “I need you more than you can imagine”. He kissed me deeply. I could feel his commitment through his kiss. I trusted him. Robert is man of commitment. He showed me many times, that once he made his decision he would never retreat. One of his distinctive qualities that knocked my heart and made me irrevocably in love with him.

So when I left him, my heart was ballooning. We already stepped into a higher level. Soon, we could go out in public. A love couple. Me and my British gentleman. Robert Pattinson.

The wordings in the note came from “The love I found in you” by Jim Brickmann.
You could see the complete lyrics and listening to the song here

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My heart was rejoicing. My love for Kristen was getting stronger day after day. It’s almost no boundaries. I was ready to shout to the world that she’s mine. Since we’re back together, we had a new routine ritual. We started our day with morning encounter. I almost neglected the paps and photographers. They could take my picture leaving Kristen’s house as much as they want everyday. This morning, following my rejoiced heart, I left a note I wrote the night before on her bed and I asked her to read it after I left. She chuckled and gave her warmest hug, kissed my lips softly before she whispered, “you’re still the guy I met 2 years ago, take care Rob. I’ll see you soon”.

What else I could say. There are so many reasons that made me love her. Few of them were poured out in my note for her.

I have a very strong desire, soon after the whole sagas completed, I could walk the street together with Kristen. I am desperately seeking for that moment. Moment that we could declare our relationship freely. Moment that we will be seen as a love couple. But for the upcoming days, I will enjoying every single time I have with Kristen to show her that she means a lot to me. That would be enough for now.

The wordings in the note came from my eternity favorite old song You’re the inspiration by Chicago. You could see the complete lyrics and listening to the song here

Whatever the true story behind the wide-spread pictures & newest gossip, my writings is just my point of view, my own analysis.

Disclaimer: All photographs used in this blog belongs to rightful owners.