I couldn’t believe my eyes. The article was so irritating. How could they write some craps that totally untrue like that. Rob asked my ex to stay away from me? I felt a very strong eager to shout back to them. It was not the true story.

How could Robert ask my ex to stay away from me, if I was the one who finally found my comfort when I laid my cheek on his shoulder and I was the one who laughed from my heart, but not realized that I was unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him. How could Robert ask my ex to stay away from me, if I was the one who’s being so stubborn but at the same time could not stay away from him.

How could Robert ask my ex to stay away, if he’s the one who’s being noble and gave lots of space for me to think about my relationship with Michael. The one who’s really understood my tortured situation 2 years ago. Torn between my long-time friendship with Michael and my growing feelings for Robert. He’s the one who decided to release me and gave me time to considering my decision. Who gave me the statement “I can be noble, Kristen. I’m not going to make you choose between us. Just be happy, and you can have whatever part of me you want, or none at all, if that’s better. Don’t let any debt you feel you owe me influence your decision” – quote from Eclipse – Even though he knew that decision broke his heart.

It was me, with all my senses, turned Michael’s marriage proposal because I knew I would make both of me & Michael miserable if I accepted his proposal. It was me, who finally understood, “If all else perished, and he remained, I should still continue to be; and if all else remained, and he were annihilated, the universe would turn to a mighty stranger”. – quote from New Moon –

I was the one who realized and knew exactly what Bella means. Soul mate was not someone that I can live with, but someone that I can’t live without. I knew who I can’t live without. I could not live without his beautiful soulful eyes, who never fail to see me through. I could not live without his thoughtful smile. I could not live without him, without the half that made whole. I could not live without Robert.

I was still irritated. But I knew. They just didn’t know what exactly happen. They just didn’t know. Robert would never ask my ex to stay away. Because I was the one who decided, that I could not live without the love of my life.

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