I was at LAX. Ready for departing to New York. One hundred percent aware. The photographers and paparazzi were around everywhere, but strangely, it bothered me not.
My head was still memorizing my sweetest moments with Kristen the day before.
I still dazzled by her beautiful looks. Her glowing face melted my heart. And knowing that she glowed because
of me, gave more happiness in my heart. More than ever.
I loved to see her walking beside me on MTV catwalk, the short dress and sneakers. Rare combination but extremely beautiful. I just couldn’t take my eyes over her. And for the unknown reason, I loved her crumpled hair the most. She’s really my girl.
I memorized our MTV moments, the out-of-MTV kissing tradition. She was teasing me. I don’t mind. I agreed with her, no personal kiss should be shared to the audience’s eyes. They had seen enough of our kissing chemistry. But I was enjoying my moment to stood close to her. To my Bella. My Kristen.
I didn’t have much time with her in Italy. So I insisted to have some private time with her before I leave LA.
I only have one free night after the MMA. We’ve made our agreement. We agreed to skip the MMA after party. The thoughts of having private time with her was really tickles. Posing for the photographer were not easy. I felt the rush in my heart. Really need private time with Kristen.
I knew I should be grateful. I was able to had a private dinner with Kristen at Cecconi. Only the two of us and it was great. But after spending a night together at Charlie’s Hotel, I also realized, being away from each other wouldn’t be easy for us.
==> I don’t think this is perfect manip, but I decided to use it because for me, it represents their difficult feelings for being away from each other.
But we both knew, I must leave. We have obligations to fulfill.
I should thanks Jules, she’s a great mother. She’s been very thoughtful.
When I hugged her, I told her that her support for us made me deeply indebted. Her friendly and warm hug eased my painful feeling for being away from her daughter. She said that I should be taking care of myself in NY. She cares about me. And I also thank her for that.
Saying goodbye to Kristen wasn’t easy. We both still tired, I could see her sleepy eyes, but I knew, there were not much to say. We’ve shared our time night before. We already knew our feelings for each other. Our relationship is getting stronger. A light kiss on her forehead and lips was enough to show my deepest feelings.
I left my heart with her. I asked her to taking care of it. I knew I will miss her in the next few days in NY.
But this time, it won’t be too painful.
I knew, deep inside of my heart. Through our on-screen kiss in Italy, we have renewed and sealed our relationship.
We are more than just a good friends. I love her. Just like Edward loves Bella. I love her in every way.
She’s my sunshine. My best friend. Our separation is only temporary. Soon I will have her back in my arms again.
==> Another picture manipulation which for me, represents their relationship.
These are what I have in mind when I look at the pictures and I wish could be happen between them. Whatever the true story behind the wide-spread pictures & newest gossip, within the next few days and months, my writings is just my point of view, my own analysis. I’ll be tremendously happy if they could be a real couple, but if not at least I still have something to comfort my feelings.
Disclaimer: All photographs and manips used in this blog are belongs to their rightful owners.